taken for granted

I slept -

unaware of your gazing eyes

I slept -

unaware of what was going on inside your mind

I slept -

Because I trusted you blindly

I slept -

because of the security you offered to me.

I slept -

only to wake up and find you gone

I woke up to -

the harsh reality

the fact that I took you for granted

the ache that it was my fault

the realization that I just needed to pay attention.

now, I lay awake for hours,

hoping to see the gazing eyes

to try and understand your thoughts

to trust you blindly but not take you for granted

to feel secured but offer you security as well

I lay awake -

for hours, night after night.

hoping you would come back.

poems on depression